This quote quite perfectly sums up how I feel, at the ebb of my emotional state. For a very short story, I once had a best friend but now we are no more. I have just as good best friends but losing this one was like losing a piece of my heart. We were like brothers and I'm not ashamed to say that I loved him like a brother. But like all humans, we both had flaws and we both made mistakes... and that's just the way life is, whether one likes it or not....
"Its really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers. " - Anonymous
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
Name Change
Ok yeah I changed the name of the blog (to the 4 readers I have who realised) cause I wanted to be a bit more anonymous in such a small country. I secretly fear the day when one of my friends find this blog and then it explodes like the last one (which I am not going to link to cuase its way more personal lol).
Speaking of my last blog, it imploded quietly under the strain of writing witty funny stories and scathing commentaries about friends who stepped out of line. Maybe in retrospect, I shouldn't have used it to call out the few bad apples as it left the ones with a few bumps in them to begin to collectively fear if (or rather in their minds, when) they would get put on blast too. Especially my two closest friends at the time. No matter how hard I tried to persuade them that I would never do that to them, cuz they are my friends DUH, they wouldn't believe me and as a result this odd strain developed in both the friendship with them both pulling away. It of course was the very early beginning of the end but thats a story for another day.
In the meantime, this bog and its readers are 'Down Behind God Back'. This is a Bajan saying meaning that something is really far away or out of reach.... and yeah my blog is really removed from general knowledge lol. I still remember the days of ppl coming up to me at UWI and telling me my last blog post was really funny, of course much to my surprise. I was naive then and worried about offending some ppl and shit like that BUT NOT ANYMORE!!! You don't like what u see u can slap tar (read: hit the road Jack) lol.
Anywya I'm at work and my employer is here paying me LESS THAN MY AGREED SALARY so I'm off to get on black as cunt.
I hope nobody comes across this blog fa real lol,
Janus
Speaking of my last blog, it imploded quietly under the strain of writing witty funny stories and scathing commentaries about friends who stepped out of line. Maybe in retrospect, I shouldn't have used it to call out the few bad apples as it left the ones with a few bumps in them to begin to collectively fear if (or rather in their minds, when) they would get put on blast too. Especially my two closest friends at the time. No matter how hard I tried to persuade them that I would never do that to them, cuz they are my friends DUH, they wouldn't believe me and as a result this odd strain developed in both the friendship with them both pulling away. It of course was the very early beginning of the end but thats a story for another day.
In the meantime, this bog and its readers are 'Down Behind God Back'. This is a Bajan saying meaning that something is really far away or out of reach.... and yeah my blog is really removed from general knowledge lol. I still remember the days of ppl coming up to me at UWI and telling me my last blog post was really funny, of course much to my surprise. I was naive then and worried about offending some ppl and shit like that BUT NOT ANYMORE!!! You don't like what u see u can slap tar (read: hit the road Jack) lol.
Anywya I'm at work and my employer is here paying me LESS THAN MY AGREED SALARY so I'm off to get on black as cunt.
I hope nobody comes across this blog fa real lol,
Janus
Thursday, July 3, 2008
My Love-Hate Relationship With Bridgetown
Now honestly speaking, I HATE Bridgetown... I know I know, Barbados is my rock and Bridgetown is the capital of my illustrious nations but... FUCK IT!!!! Bridgetown sucks ass...
Figure 1: It looks pretty but its mini-hell to the unsuspecting
I'll give you an example: Every goddamn day I go into Town (I'm abbreviating cause that what Bajans call it and I'm getting tired writing the whole name) I have to add one other reason as to why I hate the place. Where to begin? Should I start with the fact that Swan Street is always freaking crowded? How about that Colombian Emeralds store assistants don't look twice at me because I'm black and therefore I have no money like say a (white) tourist would, because of course all tourists are white and their pockets are just crammed with money waiting to be spent. How about the fact that town is freaking always full of slow-moving idiots who clog everywhere and making moving about painfully slow, especially when I want to get in and out in one go. It just makes me want to punch them in the back of the head and kick them when they are down.
No the biggest kicker of all with town is that I ALWAYS, without fail, meet somebody that I DO NOT under any circumstance want to meet. Town just sucks them towards its rotten core where they loiter waiting for me to arrive. Its always some idiots who I haven;t seen in ages who wants to make small talk or wants my number. If its not that its another cunt asking for money. Failing that its somebody who hates me and who I really do not want to see that happens to be coming straight towards me and we pretend each other doesn't exist... that last one just fucks up my next hour.
I like some of the shops don't get me wrong but the customer service is AWFUL everywhere I go including Cave Shepherd and especially in wannabe uptown Coach, which is near the bottom in terms of designer labels stupse and Harrisons. To go in a certain shoe shop on Lower Broad Street is to be heckled by at least 10 'duty-free' men who try to find out if you are from away and have your passport to do duty free and then heckle you to do it for other people. Its madness going in there because even if you're not a tourist, they still hover behind you commenting on shoes and prices. STUPSE.
In case you haven't got it yet, I love Town cause tis the capital of my nation and I'm fiercely patriotic. However Town irks the shit out of me for being the cesspit in which all the people I don't want to see gather along with the unruly ghetto types and the groups of lesbian girls trying to be edgy. Stupse, Town needs to be washed down with clorox or burnt the eff down and started again.
I'm wishing Town would sink into the Careenage,
Janus
Figure 1: It looks pretty but its mini-hell to the unsuspecting
I'll give you an example: Every goddamn day I go into Town (I'm abbreviating cause that what Bajans call it and I'm getting tired writing the whole name) I have to add one other reason as to why I hate the place. Where to begin? Should I start with the fact that Swan Street is always freaking crowded? How about that Colombian Emeralds store assistants don't look twice at me because I'm black and therefore I have no money like say a (white) tourist would, because of course all tourists are white and their pockets are just crammed with money waiting to be spent. How about the fact that town is freaking always full of slow-moving idiots who clog everywhere and making moving about painfully slow, especially when I want to get in and out in one go. It just makes me want to punch them in the back of the head and kick them when they are down.
No the biggest kicker of all with town is that I ALWAYS, without fail, meet somebody that I DO NOT under any circumstance want to meet. Town just sucks them towards its rotten core where they loiter waiting for me to arrive. Its always some idiots who I haven;t seen in ages who wants to make small talk or wants my number. If its not that its another cunt asking for money. Failing that its somebody who hates me and who I really do not want to see that happens to be coming straight towards me and we pretend each other doesn't exist... that last one just fucks up my next hour.
I like some of the shops don't get me wrong but the customer service is AWFUL everywhere I go including Cave Shepherd and especially in wannabe uptown Coach, which is near the bottom in terms of designer labels stupse and Harrisons. To go in a certain shoe shop on Lower Broad Street is to be heckled by at least 10 'duty-free' men who try to find out if you are from away and have your passport to do duty free and then heckle you to do it for other people. Its madness going in there because even if you're not a tourist, they still hover behind you commenting on shoes and prices. STUPSE.
In case you haven't got it yet, I love Town cause tis the capital of my nation and I'm fiercely patriotic. However Town irks the shit out of me for being the cesspit in which all the people I don't want to see gather along with the unruly ghetto types and the groups of lesbian girls trying to be edgy. Stupse, Town needs to be washed down with clorox or burnt the eff down and started again.
I'm wishing Town would sink into the Careenage,
Janus
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Return of the Jedi/ Blogs I love
I have finally returned to my beloved albeit neglected blog... and how I have missed it!!!!
Yes yes forgive me for the cheezy ass title of this post but I couldn't resist lol... anyway... well so much has freaking changed since last year... for one its 2008 ( DUH!!!).. number 2 there have benen so much changes in my life... losing friends and so-called friends, gaining new ones, reaching the limits of other friendships, seeing different sides of some people including some ex-best friends (dear God i hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the ass lol).... so much... well its only expected given that 5 months has passed since I last blogged.
Anyway as I try to learn abt blogging to make this blog not look like crap, there are some other blogs that I love and can hopefully learn from:
1. The Cynical Ones - Can I say that I LOVE this blog? Where to begin? The layout, the sarcastic wit, the pop culture references... by all rights I should hate on him cuz he hated beloved Rihanna for so long but after he gave up on that I was gladly relieved that I could laugh at his stuff without feeling guilty I was supporting a hater lol. Seriously tho, his posts are informative without being overbearing, intelligent, humourous and seriously sarcastic and just like the title, cynical. The one thing I respect the author most for is the fact that he is gay but he doesn't try to cram his agenda down your throat (no pun intended lol) or spew continuously about gay rights and how gays are abused/discriminated/unfaired etc. or paint his blog pink and talk about his sex life or love of boyfriend/stereotypical gay things (read: shoes, clothes, fashion etc.) Actually I didn't even know he was gay until I read it on another blog belonging to his best friend... isn't that weird? He keeps things simple and his layout is the BOMB. His take on most things is HILARIOUS and he's even able to poke fun at the things he loves like Beyonce and I respect him for that... it took me long to be able to do the same with Ri-Ri lol. His blog is one that I find myself coming back to cause its so good.
2. Stuff Black People Hate - Another blog I have come to love but I only discovered this one recently.... still although it is not as olf as TCO, it is still just as hilarious with the author putting his own personal spin on most if not all of the posts and his personal stories are more than entertaining. He also updates frequently so that 'want more!' feeling you get after reading the blog is soon satiated after a day or two. Also the comments section is also another area for additional laughs.
3. Rantings of the Superlative1 - This blog is not as good as the other two but still just as funny, more sarcastic than SBPH and focuses more on local rather than international stuff but I still like it. The author has a sharp tongue and wit and is not afraid to use them and believes that everyone is entitled to his opinion.
Well thats all for me now... since its summer summer summer summer time, expect more posts my less than 5 readers...
Peace and One Love
Yes yes forgive me for the cheezy ass title of this post but I couldn't resist lol... anyway... well so much has freaking changed since last year... for one its 2008 ( DUH!!!).. number 2 there have benen so much changes in my life... losing friends and so-called friends, gaining new ones, reaching the limits of other friendships, seeing different sides of some people including some ex-best friends (dear God i hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the ass lol).... so much... well its only expected given that 5 months has passed since I last blogged.
Anyway as I try to learn abt blogging to make this blog not look like crap, there are some other blogs that I love and can hopefully learn from:
1. The Cynical Ones - Can I say that I LOVE this blog? Where to begin? The layout, the sarcastic wit, the pop culture references... by all rights I should hate on him cuz he hated beloved Rihanna for so long but after he gave up on that I was gladly relieved that I could laugh at his stuff without feeling guilty I was supporting a hater lol. Seriously tho, his posts are informative without being overbearing, intelligent, humourous and seriously sarcastic and just like the title, cynical. The one thing I respect the author most for is the fact that he is gay but he doesn't try to cram his agenda down your throat (no pun intended lol) or spew continuously about gay rights and how gays are abused/discriminated/unfaired etc. or paint his blog pink and talk about his sex life or love of boyfriend/stereotypical gay things (read: shoes, clothes, fashion etc.) Actually I didn't even know he was gay until I read it on another blog belonging to his best friend... isn't that weird? He keeps things simple and his layout is the BOMB. His take on most things is HILARIOUS and he's even able to poke fun at the things he loves like Beyonce and I respect him for that... it took me long to be able to do the same with Ri-Ri lol. His blog is one that I find myself coming back to cause its so good.
2. Stuff Black People Hate - Another blog I have come to love but I only discovered this one recently.... still although it is not as olf as TCO, it is still just as hilarious with the author putting his own personal spin on most if not all of the posts and his personal stories are more than entertaining. He also updates frequently so that 'want more!' feeling you get after reading the blog is soon satiated after a day or two. Also the comments section is also another area for additional laughs.
3. Rantings of the Superlative1 - This blog is not as good as the other two but still just as funny, more sarcastic than SBPH and focuses more on local rather than international stuff but I still like it. The author has a sharp tongue and wit and is not afraid to use them and believes that everyone is entitled to his opinion.
Well thats all for me now... since its summer summer summer summer time, expect more posts my less than 5 readers...
Peace and One Love
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Happy Independence Barbados!!!
I know I'm really late, hey I had an exam today!!! Cut me some slack dammit.. anyway, Barbados turned 41 years independent on November 30th 2007.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARBADOS!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy 41st Independence!!!!!
41 years not out and hopefully many more!!!!
I am very proud to be a Bajan and all the excellent people we have produced, both cricket greats such as Sir Garfield Sobers who really put Bim on the map to superstar singers like Rihanna who are really stamping our place in this modern age. There are so many who that I cant even name all of them but know that I love and respect all of you, from Alison Hinds to the Mighty Gabby to Jackie Opel to the Merrymen and all those who came before, in-between and after!!! After all, is a nation not about its people. Let's keep on the right path and hope that our governments keep us on the right path and that we as a nation do not fall. I mean all the hollow rhetoric that is spouted all the time about how we are all sinners and backsliders.... I dont believe it for one moment but I really hope we dont get dangerous like Trinidad or Jamrock... I love my lil Rock just how it is...except I wish that the Government would stop holding land over the people head and passing it to foreigners... hold lil for me nuh!!! (lol...I'll save that for another blog)
Barbados has been independent for 41 years and I hope we are independent for many more!! As the old ppl say, 41 years not out lol. Hopefully God will continue to guide us and lead us cause as they also say.... God is a Bajan!! (and if he is, he must be a Cawmerian hahaha)
God bless you all,
Happy Independence Bim,
Peace and One Love,
- Luke
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARBADOS!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy 41st Independence!!!!!
41 years not out and hopefully many more!!!!
I am very proud to be a Bajan and all the excellent people we have produced, both cricket greats such as Sir Garfield Sobers who really put Bim on the map to superstar singers like Rihanna who are really stamping our place in this modern age. There are so many who that I cant even name all of them but know that I love and respect all of you, from Alison Hinds to the Mighty Gabby to Jackie Opel to the Merrymen and all those who came before, in-between and after!!! After all, is a nation not about its people. Let's keep on the right path and hope that our governments keep us on the right path and that we as a nation do not fall. I mean all the hollow rhetoric that is spouted all the time about how we are all sinners and backsliders.... I dont believe it for one moment but I really hope we dont get dangerous like Trinidad or Jamrock... I love my lil Rock just how it is...except I wish that the Government would stop holding land over the people head and passing it to foreigners... hold lil for me nuh!!! (lol...I'll save that for another blog)
Barbados has been independent for 41 years and I hope we are independent for many more!! As the old ppl say, 41 years not out lol. Hopefully God will continue to guide us and lead us cause as they also say.... God is a Bajan!! (and if he is, he must be a Cawmerian hahaha)
God bless you all,
Happy Independence Bim,
Peace and One Love,
- Luke
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Earthquake? In Barbados?
It is now 3:19 and approximately 20 minutes ago, Barbados had an earthquake. AS of right now I do not know if they were any casualties, I fear for those who were driving at the time but it seems to have been nation wide. It is unclear at this time where the epicentre of the quake was but apparently from reports received (i.e calls lol) town was shaking pretty badly. It was VERY surreal almost to the point where when it first began I thought I was going mad...
I was listening to music at the time with my headphones on and I realised that my chair was moving of its own accord, completely independent to me just sitting there. I took off the earphones to stare puzzled when I realised that the windchimes were going yet there was no wind. THEN... I realised the house was shaking, along with a slight rumbling sound. It seemed to be getting worse and then goin back to just weird. It made me dizzy and insanely uncomfortable. I oscillated if to run outside or not. There was no noise outside, the dog wasnt even barking. It was only when things started falling down that I realised that it really was an earthquake. I can clearly remember looking outside and seeing the oil in the lantern swishing back and forth of its own accord and the hanging light we have inside going back and forth as well. It was very surreal like in a movie. I picked up the phone and dialed 211 mid-quake but there was no response (what was I trying to acheive though? What were the police gonna do? Go underground and investigate? Stupse.... and trust the friggin police not to answer)... I tried calling my cousin on her cell too but it kept dropping my call and up until now it has lost all signal and its telling me no service (thank you SO MUCH Cable and Wireless).
All in all, the quake is now over and it is time to wait for tomorrows paper and the news tonight to find out what happened all over the country. I was like the second person on facebook to update my status wondering if the quake only affected me (yay me? lol). Seriously tho, when that quake first started I thought I was going mad... plus I was cut off... nobody on the net was responding and my fone wasnt working. It was very surreal, like I was trapped in a movie, complete with the stuff falling down and the house shaking and all.
Thank Allah (no I'm not a muslim I just like saying Allah), that it wasn't bad and that I'm still alive and I wasn't anywhere stupid like UWI or driving on the road (imagine that oh. my. God.... must have been awful). Amazing... Lord have mercy on us all lol.
(UPDATE: Apparently the quake was... brace yourself, REGION WIDE!!!!! Trinidad, Guyana, St. Lucia, Grenada... and here I was thinking it was plain old Kick 'Em Jenny or an earthquake... madness. I will try to keep my 1 or 2 readers updated as much as possible. Listening to the radio now as all regular programming has stopped and they are talking about the quake.)
(UPDATE UPDATE: Guadeloupe, St. Vincent and Tobago also were affected... I'm hearing that 7.3 on the Richter!!! Imagine that... on a regional level... more updates as they come in... Also apparently the earthquake was real bad down at the North coast, especially the Arawak Cement plant...and a crane fell over in Fitts Village as well. I bet I'm the first bajan blogger to report this. Props to me!!!! More as it comes in ppl.)
UPDATE: SO I'm like on of the first lol. This site proves that the earthquake was in fact a 7.3 http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsww/Quakes/us2007kha5.php#details and the normal bajan blogs are now beginning to report such as Notes on the Margin http://notesfromthemargin.wordpress.com/and Barbados Underground http://bajan.wordpress.com/.
Props to BU for being on the ball and posting updates as they come in. Very helpful.
I was listening to music at the time with my headphones on and I realised that my chair was moving of its own accord, completely independent to me just sitting there. I took off the earphones to stare puzzled when I realised that the windchimes were going yet there was no wind. THEN... I realised the house was shaking, along with a slight rumbling sound. It seemed to be getting worse and then goin back to just weird. It made me dizzy and insanely uncomfortable. I oscillated if to run outside or not. There was no noise outside, the dog wasnt even barking. It was only when things started falling down that I realised that it really was an earthquake. I can clearly remember looking outside and seeing the oil in the lantern swishing back and forth of its own accord and the hanging light we have inside going back and forth as well. It was very surreal like in a movie. I picked up the phone and dialed 211 mid-quake but there was no response (what was I trying to acheive though? What were the police gonna do? Go underground and investigate? Stupse.... and trust the friggin police not to answer)... I tried calling my cousin on her cell too but it kept dropping my call and up until now it has lost all signal and its telling me no service (thank you SO MUCH Cable and Wireless).
All in all, the quake is now over and it is time to wait for tomorrows paper and the news tonight to find out what happened all over the country. I was like the second person on facebook to update my status wondering if the quake only affected me (yay me? lol). Seriously tho, when that quake first started I thought I was going mad... plus I was cut off... nobody on the net was responding and my fone wasnt working. It was very surreal, like I was trapped in a movie, complete with the stuff falling down and the house shaking and all.
Thank Allah (no I'm not a muslim I just like saying Allah), that it wasn't bad and that I'm still alive and I wasn't anywhere stupid like UWI or driving on the road (imagine that oh. my. God.... must have been awful). Amazing... Lord have mercy on us all lol.
(UPDATE: Apparently the quake was... brace yourself, REGION WIDE!!!!! Trinidad, Guyana, St. Lucia, Grenada... and here I was thinking it was plain old Kick 'Em Jenny or an earthquake... madness. I will try to keep my 1 or 2 readers updated as much as possible. Listening to the radio now as all regular programming has stopped and they are talking about the quake.)
(UPDATE UPDATE: Guadeloupe, St. Vincent and Tobago also were affected... I'm hearing that 7.3 on the Richter!!! Imagine that... on a regional level... more updates as they come in... Also apparently the earthquake was real bad down at the North coast, especially the Arawak Cement plant...and a crane fell over in Fitts Village as well. I bet I'm the first bajan blogger to report this. Props to me!!!! More as it comes in ppl.)
UPDATE: SO I'm like on of the first lol. This site proves that the earthquake was in fact a 7.3 http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsww/Quakes/us2007kha5.php#details and the normal bajan blogs are now beginning to report such as Notes on the Margin http://notesfromthemargin.wordpress.com/and Barbados Underground http://bajan.wordpress.com/.
Props to BU for being on the ball and posting updates as they come in. Very helpful.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Work work work... i think I'm going insane
Well this will be a quick post seeing as I have TONS of work to do... I mean I have a book review due tomorrow/today and I am NOWHERE near finished. Hell I'm even writing a blog and some of me and the SAME friends who have the same damn book review are even online talking shite lol. I mean its so hard... sigh. I have alot more reading to do. I can see I shall be up late.
I was wondering why I always get the shitty end of the work stick (i.e late projects, alot of work to do, tons of research etc)... I'm coming to realise that its not just me.... others in my class and even at UWI on the whole, sumtimes have more to do... maybe I'm just more vocal about it? lol. Anyway who cares about them? This blog is about me and I can whine about how much work I have to do or not lol. If u don't like it... Youtube is there innit?
Anyway... back to the grind!! The work ist gonna do itself and I actually want to finish it tonight... rather this morning. Good luck with your endeavours folks!!! :D
I was wondering why I always get the shitty end of the work stick (i.e late projects, alot of work to do, tons of research etc)... I'm coming to realise that its not just me.... others in my class and even at UWI on the whole, sumtimes have more to do... maybe I'm just more vocal about it? lol. Anyway who cares about them? This blog is about me and I can whine about how much work I have to do or not lol. If u don't like it... Youtube is there innit?
Anyway... back to the grind!! The work ist gonna do itself and I actually want to finish it tonight... rather this morning. Good luck with your endeavours folks!!! :D
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
